Goodbye Mark...

Mark gave me this book GEORGE MACDONALD, an anthology by C.S. Lewis for Christmas in 2010. I go to this book and write out one of the readings as my spirit tells him goodbye from this world wishing him exciting travels into the next... 

[365] The Last Resource

"Lilith," said Mara, "you will not sleep, if you lie there a thousand years, until you have opened your hand, and yielded that which is not yours...."

"I cannot," she answered. "I would if I could, and gladly, for I am weary, and the shadows of death are gathering about me."

"They will gather and gather, but they cannot infold you while yet your hand remains unopened. You may think you are dead, but it will be only a dream.... Open your hand, and you will sleep indeed--then wake indeed." 

"There was a sword I once saw in your husband's hands," [Lilith] murmured. "I fled when I saw it. I heard him who bore it say it would divide whatever was not one and indivisible!"

"I have the sword," said Adam. "The angel gave it me when he left the gate."

"Bring it, Adam," pleaded Lilith, "and cut me off this hand that I may sleep."

"I will," he answered.

To My Brother

As a brother, I curse the sky as to why my sister has to go through this. She may not have known it, but she was my strength at my time of weakness. I hope I can be the same for her in the coming days. I know deep down these are the roles we must play in life. We are very blessed to have experienced our time with Mark. I am not sad, nor am I regretful on anything I should have said or done between our personal lives. In the end each part plays out exactly the way it should. I ask and pray to the heavens, the sky, and the winds of the spirit realm that his body relinquishes this pain so that his soul may find peace. He now gets to go ride those heavenly-cosmic waves! Brother, I'll see you soon out there.

Spinning

It's late at night that when I think of her

I can't sleep

My life is so black & white

It's late at night that when I dream her

These feelings creep

My love is so black & white

This object never stops spinning

This object is close to tipping

My heart... This object wreaks

How free is he...

"How free he is who has already accepted death and is simply enjoying the rest of their time inhabiting a body in this world." - Rohan 

I usually go to sleep thinking about my eternal sleep. It reminds me that I either failed myself or succeeded with the ending day. This is my reality, this is my state of mind. I know what awaits. I try to live fully because I know my eyes one day will not open... Whatever way it will come, I accept my destiny. 

Roaming Tracks

Lonely, lonely is the wolf. 

Roaming around, boldly

Honing his skills, 

moving in the moonlit array 

Lonely, lonely is the wolf. 

Although, he is not always

one and only

A call to the skies,

The Pack now joins him 

in spiritual play...

Lonely, lonely is the wolf. 

He never looks back...

These words... Real life.

"Even when God seemed to have abandoned me, he was watching. Even when he seemed indifferent to my suffering, he was watching, & when I was beyond all hope of saving, he gave me rest. Then he gave me a sign to continue my journey." - Life of Pi 

So far...

I haven't done this in a while... reaching to the far corners of my mind to write, to think, to imagine. I reminisce on a lot now days, it's fine. It seems the older you get the more you start to believe the better days are behind. The quicker one can get this thought out of their head, the brighter the future will be. It's easily explainable. Too many others start to believe that the better days are again, unattainable. In a world where fake ability & fake personality create more interest than real creativity... The harder it becomes to differentiate what to believe and to know the ill-negativity. Seek truth, find it, know that there's something greater out there than me, than you, than us, than this little planet revolving around... Know the end and fill greatest within. 

I'm not where I thought I'd be, but I'm where I am supposed to be... The greatest thing about this life -- is a thought that can set you free.

31. Life, so far, goes by fast when you're having so much fun!