Friday, December 24, 2010

Balance

Balance now I seek

Balance through-out the fog;

life was weak

My mind clouded by

Things I

could control - but didn't

It's not that I couldn't

Was just that I chose to

pick something unchosen

in front of me

I put something in front

I can not see

That wasn't supposed to be

The balance I sought

The wrath it brought

The balance I got

After the hurt I brought

on you.

I'm almost confused too...

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Edge

That thin Edge
Sometimes its ok
ok to be a little
little on edge
edge walking that thin
thin line sometimes
sometimes it ok
ok to be
be just something
something else
else you'd see
see yourself looking
looking like you were walking
walking on
on a thin Edge.

(written Saturday, May 10 2008)

Monday, December 20, 2010

The Yawn of Orion

The night grows silent. I had something to talk about but she took it away.

The night grows cold. I had a feeling then she sucked it away.

The dream grows. I had a thought but she discarded it like she does her own.

I wake up. She wants to close her eyes.

There comes the time when we are in align. Then she decides a maze is better to keep me

wondering behind...

I am not nearly confused to the way things are. She doesn't know which way to go.

A yawn is a yawn - but a thought...will set you free!

(written Tuesday, November 21, 2006)

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Halos

Tell me Heaven

I'm an Angel, floating among the stars
Seeing halos empty
Golden rings and ripped wings
Me reaching, gathering them in jars

Tell me Heaven

Why so many leave to go
To that place which became
Of sand and snow
To know things down there
Are closer to the flame

Tell me Heaven

So many vanished into the unknown
I'm here, though not alone
Floating and watching
Sitting on Mars
Watching empty halos shine
Brighter than stars

Tell me Heaven

I saw another fall
To that place
Where there is Spring and Fall
In desperation I reached to say
"Earthly bodies they become such waste"

Tell me Heaven

Why do Angels
Lose their Golden Rings
Then rip their wings
And fall to a place
Where by taking a breath
They accept Life...
and Death
Tell me Heaven if you will

What body shall I fill?

Ismael Josue' Nava
(written Tuesday, April 8 2008)

Thursday, December 16, 2010

The Patient...

Read this:
"A groan of tedium escapes me, stuttering, fearful.
Is this a test?
It has to be. otherwise I can't go on.
Draining patience. drain vitality.
This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old.

But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. and I'm still right
Here.
But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. and I'm still right
Here.

I'm gonna wait it out

If there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.

I'm gonna wait it out

If there were no desire to heal
The damaged and broken met along this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.

I still may. and I still may.
Be patient.

I must keep reminding myself of this...

If there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
And I still may. and I still may. and I still may.

I'm gonna wait it out.
I'm gonna wait it out.
Gonna wait it out.
Gonna wait it out." - TOOL

Read this:

I'm tired of all this. This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old. I'm tired of all this crap. I can't sleep because of all this, of all this feelings I have, of putting my whole heart into something. I don't want to believe in KARMA but it's hard to not when everything has reversed itself on me. Screw this. I love being able to understand that I'm not of this world, I'm more than just flesh, bone, and thought. I'm a spirit.
My true self is what I am when I am no more, when we are no more.
I just want to get rid of this feeling. It's what makes me human though, and am I not here to be human? Screw it all. The villains have all the fun, I'm attracted to this. I excelled as a villain. I was numero uno villain, so these guys can't out do me. I was tuned into the dark, I understood evil. I asked to be in it. Now I see others where I was. A villain. I see those I love push away the hero and pursue the dark. Maybe these villains I see will one day be heros...but I can't count on it. I will push on. I will fight on. I will destroy the villain in me and in you. I want to walk away so bad. I want to walk away so freaking bad. I WANT TO WALK AWAY. But am I - I'm not. Real life HEROS don't wear capes, they're not in public view. They're behind the scenes. I have chosen my path. I have chosen and decided where I shall be. My path intersects with yours and yours with mine. What shall you do when I ask you to decide? Be patient they say. Be strong and courageous He says. I must keep reminding myself of this...I must. Screw you and your indecision. Forget what you know. Quit trying to act like you know. You don't. Neither do I, but I know that I don't know. Is this is a test...it has to be. Be patient. Keep reminding myself of this, I must.