[159] Self

This explains it perfectly...I against I. Staring into my own eyes...Wondering which one of me is going to overcome the other...On and on I could go, I will let this entry of George MacDonald explain though

"Self, I have not to consult you but Him whose idea is the soul of you, and of which as yet you are all unworthy, I have to do, not with you, but with the Source of you, by whom it is that (at)  any moment you exist - the Causing of you, not the caused you. You may be my consciousness but you are not my being....For God is more to me than my consciousness of myself. He is my life; you are only so much of it as my poor half-made being can grasp - as much of it as I can now know at once. Because I have fooled and spoiled you, treated you as if you were indeed my own self, you have dwindled yourself and have lessened me, till I am ashamed of myself. If I were to mind what you say, I should soon be sick of you; even now I am ever and anon disgusted with your paltry mean face, which I meet at every turn. No! Let me have the company of the Perfect One, not of you! Of my elder brother, the Living One! I will not make a friend of the mere shadow of my own being. Good-bye, Self! I deny you, and will do my best every day to leave you behind."

My struggle is within. I don't compete with others to best them. I compete with myself, to beat myself, to over come self. I don't mean to act as if I am better than others, I just rejoice in defeating my former self. People may just be caught up in the act and think I am trying to prove something to them, this is false. It is I who will overcome him that thinks he is me...