True Nobility

"True nobility is in being superior to your own previous self." - Hindu Proverb

I took a college course in Philosophy of Religion a year or so ago. It was a class on understanding religion on a philosophical (thinking) level - not the spiritual. In this class we discussed the Hindu religion. Not to get too confusing, the Hindu's have many gods, demi-gods, and a whole bunch of other gods in-between and outside of. A part of their religion is that, depending on what you do in this life, you will reap the fruits or pay the price for evils - in the next life. To them, you should always be improving from life to life to life..etc, until you reach the stage/level of a god type. In this, you can go on forever, screwing up or making better your situation in a specific life. This is why you see a lot of hindu people, not doing much in this life. They say, "I'll just wait till my next life and take care of it." Being a Christian, I only have one life to live, I have only one chance and I have to make it count. Now I can argue about what I think is right or what I think is wrong, but I'm not. One chance for eternity for me, I'd have it no other way. Now saying and understanding this, with the quote of the Hindu proverb I started off with, translate it to my Christian values and I have one life to out do my previous self. My previous self being where I was at yesterday, last week, last month, last year, 5 years ago...you get the point. Now there are always up and downs that we are going to go through, always though try to out do yourself.
I've been lazy lately, not really depressed but discouraged, a little bit of a failure, kind of bringing myself down and not building my whole self up and moving forward. It seems at a certain point in my life, I had everything I dreamed about, I had what I set out to do. I was what I dreamed of becoming. One day though, I dreamed greater dreams, I saw a new future...I attained new goals - visions. On my recent journey to accomplish these new goals and visions, I lost my way. I lost my nobility. I stopped growing. I regressed. I allowed failures in relationships that were at my fault to effect me.I allowed financial struggles - which I could have taken full control of - compound upon themselves in a negative way. I consciously spiritually disconnected myself from my Creator. I started to lose against my previous self.
I know the point of where I was when everything was right, where everything was in motion, where I was at the peak. When I get to that point again and I will, I will not look back. I will have learned this lesson of regression and not let it take hold of me again. I will be consciously aware. Before I leave this world, I must surpass myself - I must reach and attain...True Nobility.